Got your Goat?

The goat-screeching remix of Taylor Swift's Trouble makes me smile.

Perfect.

Then to see the many subsequent goat-enhanced videos — Bon Jovi's Livin' on a Prayer = favorite — I can't help but blush.

What's going on?

Edward Albee has a good idea.

His excellent play, The Goat, or Who is Sylvia? presents unsettling questions of love and infidelity, human and bestial sexual appetites and more.

Since Swift's song offers and ode to breaking up...

Do we need to know something more about the goading-goat creator?  Or Swift?

All quite fascinating.

Plus good reason for more people to read or see Albee's play, well worth your time.

Trouble, trouble, trouble...

Back to the Future

History triumphed at the Oscars.  From Argo to Lincoln, Anna K and Les Mis, this year's blockbusters shared a way-back-when patina that lent an extra gravitas to their theatrical brilliance.

Less brilliantly, Seth MacFarlane's appallingly minsogynst performance, complete with an ode to cleavage and jokes about domestic violence, reminded us of history's darker underbelly.  (When you get scolded by Denny Crane, you know it's really, really bad.)

Hollywood often looks to Great Men and Great Moments for great drama. At their best, historical films can broaden our understanding of and appreciation for the past—far more so than the abysmal textbooks and memorize-to-death approaches of standard high school social studies courses.

I can't imagine the Civil War without Ken Burns and for better and worse, my memory of the Civil Rights era will be forever shaped by The Help.

War wins disproportionate cinematic attention, pre-designed for suspense and special effects: Hurt Locker, Band of Brothers, Full Metal Jacket, Good Morning Vietnam—you could fill a page without even trying.

This year's Zero Dark Thirty made history as much as any film ever has, with a powerful ideological gaze back upon 9/11 and the global response to twenty-first century terrorism.

Argo, a bit tamer, got the highest honor, announced from the White House in a coup of Oscar-night performances.  (Even descending from the Star Trekked heavens, William Shatner can't come close to competing with Michelle Obama.)

Indeed, Iran better watch out because the next movie in which it appears might have a lot more bunker-busting, nuclear-weapons-destroying drama than this quite tame story of hostages' escape.

Why all the backwards-looking films?

We have a troublesome future, from cyber warfare to super storms, failed states and needless human suffering—poverty, disease, violence against women and poorly funded or non-existent educational systems.

We combat this future with well-coifed beards and other subtle signs of male power.

Having grown up in the futurist worlds of Terminator and Blade Runner, I've both enjoyed and been profoundly troubled to watch these movies of yesterday become the reality of tomorrow.  Though I think I got a head start from reflecting upon the costs and consequences of these dystopic depictions.

With the Oscars as a reflection of popular culture, we've got our backs to the future. Not a Michael J. Fox-like adventure with the chance to change the fate of human relationships, but a closed-minded, narrow-minded view of the way things were that blinds us to the desperate, trying realities we now and will soon confront.

It's time we turned around.

Killer Bodies

On Valentine's Day, Oscar Pistorius, the famed legless runner, shot and killed his supermodel girlfriend, Reeva Steenkamp.

Controversy surrounds Pistorius' status as a killer.  Did he act in self defence?  Or murder out of rage?

In a country troubled by violent crime, Steenkamp's death has become trapped between homeowners' fears about violent robberies and the everyday reality of South African women, who live under threat of violence more severe than almost anywhere else in the world.

Does Pistorius body bear as much responsibility as his mind and emotions?

In his defence, lawyers claim he faced a greater threat as a legless man and thus needed to shoot multiple times through a closed door in order to protect himself.

Many athletes favor supermodel partners: Steenkamp poses for FHM.

Prosecutors stumbled over the discovery of potential stimulants or other body-enhancing products in Pistorius' apartment—could this have been a hormone-induced mania?

If one or both carries any weight, the truth that remains: Steenkamp died in a bloody puddle.

Athletes' violent relationships make regular appearances in the news.  OJ Simpson and Nicole Smith, to provoke a now distant memory, or Tiger Woods' infidelity and car-accident escape from his home.  Boxers, baseball players, football stars, hockey champions -- even mild-mannered runners it now appears.  Or cyclists: Lance Armstrong as delusional, egotistical perpetrator of unreality.

The list goes on and on and on.

Whether as part of the massive doping scandals unfolding before us, or on high school sports fields or elementary school play yards, we must take on the role of harmful, uncontrolled violence in competitive athletics.  

Sports should subsume our animalistic and inhuman rage in a controlled, rule-governed and reasonably safe arena of play.  Off the field, then, we can relax and enjoy one another's company as friends.

Tragically, much of men's off-the-field violence gets directed toward women.  They yell, they grab, they beat and strangle and kill.

Women often direct that violence against themselves (or occasionally, other women -- Tonya Harding?!?)  

Yesterday after leaving the gym, a female friend commented: they lined up for the scale.  Truly -- a line, waiting for the scale, to weigh themselves and stare and self-critically explore every aspect of their body.

Some men eventually devolve into the self-consuming depths of dementia, like hockey player Derek Boogaard, who killed himself in a haze of depression and addiction.  (The New York Time's feature story about his career and death serves as a model of investigative journalism.)  

Endless women live as anorexics or at least burdened by obsessive body image issues and incredibly restrictive eating habits.  For men, Alzheimer's may eventually act like a sort of physical anorexia, slowly eating away at their minds and bodies.

So with all these athletics and teams and workout routines, we learn to scorn those who end up fat and we truly do live with killer bodies.

Apocalypse Now. Save Me!

Why is the same book published over and over again?

Regurgitate knowledge, I call it.

This question arose while speaking with a friend -- much more well read than I will ever be, two or three lifetimes over.

We identified some annoying tropes—I take full responsibility for the editorialising:

• You're wrong!  Everything you think about X or about the world - WRONG.  (Though I've got a clever knew way to explain everything.)  Think Malcolm Gladwell.

• You're right!  You just don't know it yet, and you must find your strong, determined inner-self and find truth and happiness and love and great sex and free cable for the rest of your life.

• Why can't we all just get along?  Everything, everybody - so divisive and cantankerous and hostile, yelling shouting heads, why can't it be like before, calm and civil and productive.  (These people appear thrilled to advertise their total ignorance of history, at least of U.S. political history.)

• The sky is falling!  Literally or figuratively, it's the end of the world.  Whether economic collapse, plague, too much immigration, not enough immigration, global warming, cyborgs and terrorists -- doom, doom, doom.  (Occasionally a modest author or two will then continue to explain how they alone possess the solution to one or all of these problems.)

But more seriously -- the last points the way to the One Book that's published today. We've one-upped our Puritan forebears and have dedicated nearly all of our intellectual energy to awaiting the apocalypse. Second coming. End times.  Revelation. However you'ld like to call it.

But unlike those godly Puritans, we want it to be easy. Chips or fries? Sit back and watch it all unfold in 3D surround sound -- simply chosen ones.

There's no easy buck to be made, or solution to discover.  Real problems get solved with real, hard work and sustained thinking, original argumentation, research, newly discovered or newly refined or understood knowledge.  It's messy.  Slow, confusing, often wrong, sometimes worse that the initial problem, but never easily dispatched in a single shiny 265 page monograph that's nothing more than an auto-expanded version of what once appeared as a decent article in the New Yorker.

We await the audience that will buy that!

Until then, I'm going to read fiction.  Awaiting my salvation.

United Airlines: Mind your manners to avoid self-desctruction

I'm still waiting for United Airlines to offer an appropriate apology.  Or thank you.  Or any kind of indication that I'm an even remotely valued customer.

My obstinacy -- and my willingness to continue to lambast United -- arises from an incident a few weeks back at the DFW airport.

I had a seat of the last Sunday evening flight to Newark.  I checked in at the gate about a half hour before departure; the agent told me the plane had just arrived; it needed to deplane; and boarding would begin in 15-20 minutes.

I went to the United Club and returned in about 25 minutes, at what would have been 1-2 minutes before the scheduled departure time.  When I got to the gate, the door had been shut and the plane just pushed back from the gate.

I stood there speechless.  Eventually, when the gate agent returned, I stared with baffled frustration and could barely ask: "what?!?"

His general response: "too bad."

Now, I had a reserved first class seat as a Platinum-level frequent flyer.  I had been in the United Club.  And the plane left without me, after I had made it known that I was in the airport and intended to travel.

After the 787 debacle, UA might have considered putting
some eggs in other baskets - like customer service.

I have never missed a flight in my life -- with hundreds of hundred of flights under my belt.

The agent in the United Club offered some considerate help.

In the end, the best I could do - I had to be back for work the next morning: I bought an $800+ ticket to Philadelphia on American, arrived at midnight, and then drove home to New York, in bad weather, making it to my apartment at about 3:00am.

United's response?  Shrug.

I realize they must get a billion silly complaints a day.  But when a loyal customer takes the time at offer feedback, should it take days before even sending a basic response?

I must say, the Director of Operations at DFW went out of his way to be helpful after-the-fact.  Though the rest of the airline let down his excellent example.

Am I asking too much?

Honestly, if within a few days I had gotten a nice, hand-written apology with a small token of appreciation - say a $100 gift certificate to a nice restaurant - I would have been impressed and dropped the matter.

The counter-example: I bought a gift at a high-end retail store in Dallas, around $300.  Without any expectation, I got a nice, hand-written note thanking me for the purchase.

Now, I can imagine Gucci has a much higher profit margin than United.  But I also know I spent nearly twenty times as much money on United since the first of the year.  With nothing more than some poorly conceived, adversarial emails and a measly 10k FF miles from customer care -- which I need like a hole in my head.

I can only hope other airlines and management can learn from this and, at a low cost and very simply, actually value customers and their loyalty.

Cote Laramie. A life lost.

Genius: a brilliant, poetic writer; a compassionate friend; a talented musician; a heartthrob of a young man.

Cote Laramie.  Harvard undergraduate.

In early September, Cote, about to begin his junior year, killed himself.

I just found this out this morning, and I am still enraged.  How could this happen?

I've been meaning to write about teenage depression, especially amongst adolescent men.  It's a subject too close to my own heart.

I knew Cote from the St. Paul's School Advanced Studies Program, which he attended between his junior and senior year of high school.  I helped him as a college advisor. I knew, from our first conversation, that Cote possessed something more.  He had a way with words, a wisdom about him.  He had lived many more than his sixteen years, that was apparent.

I helped Cote with his college entrance essay—we corresponded during the fall after ASP.

He began his essay:

"When my mother got pregnant, my father wanted nothing to do with her. I was born not knowing who my father was. I still have no idea."

We talked about missing fathers: mine died when I was thirteen.

His essay continued:

"My mom is a manic depressant schizophrenic. At four years old I was taken away from her and put into a foster home, until my aunt adopted me. Soon after I was taken, my mom began antidepressants in exchange for visitation. From then, until my 13th Christmas, I did whatever I wanted to on the weekends with her. The night I learned of her illness, I became responsible for her actions as well as my own."

We talked about dependent mothers: mine developed Alzheimer's and I served as her legal guardian and care giver.

I knew Cote struggled with depression.  I encouraged him to seek help, to remember the joy as much as the unbearable sadness.  I was so thrilled for him when he got in to Harvard.

Just months after my own father died, in the darkest days of February in New England, at the age of 14, I came very close to taking my own life.  That's nearly twenty years ago, but if you've ever gotten to that place you will never forget it. Never.

I have been extremely fortunate to have received tremendous support and treatment over the course of my life, and now know much more about myself, about depression, and about how to live a healthy, balanced, emotionally complex life.

But it took many, many years.  And I doubt most people who knew me ever realised the depths of my depression at the moments it held me in its tightest grasps.

We so desperately need to educate and care for our selves and especially our children.  Innumerable teenagers suffer from depression.  Suicide, a highly preventable end, registers as the third leading cause of death amongst 15-24 year olds.  

Yet we act as if feeling a bit blue just comes with the territory -- of growing up, of hormones, of the turmoils of middle and high school.  

Maybe.  But it's more.  Too many people suffer, truly suffer, tragically suffer.  Were they walking around with broken arms and open sores, we would be aghast and develop a crisis plan.  But since it's on the inside, we pretend.  

We pretend, at great peril.  

Please: if you or someone you know comes even remotely close to considering suicide, get help immediately.  We all need help.  I only wish I could have helped Cote. There should be no shame.

In-fat-ocide; or, why you kill fat people

You can't understand Rwanda?  Or Cambodia or the Nazis?

By the end of the day, you will be killing fat people.  Your logic with be as perversely irrational as it is perfectly logical.

I presented my case to a group of students after hearing Daniel Goldhagen speak about his most recent book, Worse than War: Genocide, Eliminiationism, and the Ongoing Assault on Humanity.

How could people ever do this?



We forever ponder this question, protecting our imagined, invariable innocence against such horrors.

But we do hate fat people. Consciously, subconsciously this hatred saturates our culture.

If we are not actively attempting to make ourselves skinny, we are fat. Damnable. Damned.  Asking for our punishment.

So for those of us strong enough to be skinny, our killing would be buoyed by Far People's self-hatred.

Yes, let's make them a class, a type, a capitalised other: those Fat People. A cancer, corroding the true nature of being human -- other than human. Fat People.

Spit, scorn, hack. Kill.


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Could this happen?

We're well on our way. Billions spent on dieting, insecurity, self-killing anorexia, depression, anxiety.

Better than a genocide, we have an auto-in-fat-icide and we don't even know it.

What's to do?

I'm headed to the gym.